Awkward First Dates and Spilled Coffee

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    I shuffle awkwardly in my seat. I'm nervous about how I look, if he was going to show up - almost everything, actually.

    Currently, I'm in a cafe. A small, unbeknownst one to the general public. I've never been to it before, but it looks very pretty. I'm quite glad that no one's ever heard of it before - it's quiet and peaceful here. I love it.

    But anyways, why am I in a cafe on a Saturday morning by myself and haven't bought myself something absolutely sugary and sweet yet?
    Good question, I might even ask myself that sometime soon.

    Well, my crush and kind of friend since around 9th grade invited me to go get some coffee with him.
    Of course, I said yes. I'm not that stupid.

    Or maybe I am.
    It could easily be a joke. To see if I would actually come. To see that I do, indeed, have a crush on him like. To see how pathetic I am.

    I keep thinking and thinking - almost giving myself a headache. There's so many ways this day could turn shitty.
    He probably won't show up. I'm pretty lame. I wouldn't even date myself. Albeit someone like -

    "Oi, Eren," A voice calls, lifting me out of my self doubting thoughts.

    I lift my head up to see the voice, and it feels like my heart stops. My face feels like it's heating up slightly.

    "H-Hey, Levi," I say. 

    Smooth, real smooth.

    Levi sits in the chair across from me, taking off his jacket and putting it across the seat.
    I can't help myself but I smile softly. Even in my wildest dreams I couldn't imagine Levi asking me to hang out with him, alone. I don't care if it's just a platonic "date". I still love hanging out with him...

    Damn. I'm like a damn schoolgirl for hell's sake.

    "Have you been waiting long?" He states simply, raising an eyebrow.
    I shake my head, "No, it's only been a few minutes."

    Maybe like twenty, but he doesn't need to know that.

    "Are you sure?"
    "Yeah, totally."

    "Anyways, I'm sorry. Shitty glasses wanted me to help her with some stupid school project. I just barely got out of there alive."

    I laugh slightly, "It's fine, really."

    A waitress comes up to us and gives us the menus, smiling softly.
    "Just call when you're ready - not a lot of people come on such a rainy day."

    "It's raining?" I ask, turning my head towards the window. 

    My voice sounds so small...

    Levi groans, and I hurry and look at him.

    "Dammit. You have been waiting long," He frowns, "It started raining almost an hour ago."
    I raise my eye, "Really?" I laugh, "I guess time flies by."
    "Hanji's gonna fucking get it. I told her that I was going to hang out with you today," He puts a hand on his forehead.

    "No, no! It's really fine, seriously," I laugh slightly.

    "Next time, I won't be late," He states.

    My heart flutters when I hear that. Next time? Would he really want to hang out with me again?

    I smile, "Okay~."

    
    A few minutes later, Levi and I order. He gets a black coffee and I ask for a mocha. Levi scoffs, and tells me that that's way too damn sugary.

    We don't talk very much while we're waiting.
    I feel annoying.

    "S-So, can you believe there's three weeks of school left?" I laugh awkwardly, trying to stir up a conversation. I don't think it's working.
    "...Yeah. And then we graduate. And then we'll be adults."
    "I'm kind of nervous about it," I say truthfully.
    He raises his eyebrow, "Why?"

    "Well, um... It's just that I'm nervous about college and if I'll be good enough for it or if I'll flunk out and end up on the streets," I laugh awkwardly, loud and annoyingly, "And if I'll ever get to hang out with y-you or anyone else from school ever again like this."

    "You're smart. You won't flunk college," He says, sighing, "And anyways, you have all of our numbers, right? We can just call."
    "It won't be the same," I frown.

    "Eren," He says my name suddenly, and I take my gaze off of the ground to him, "It'll be fine, yeah?"
    I try to smile, I'm really worried about all this shit still, though, "Yeah."
    "Don't fake smile, actually smile. It looks better on you."
    I blush, and turn my gaze back down to my hands.

    The waitress comes back and gives us our drinks. She smiles again, "Enjoy your drinks~!" And leaves.

    I take a sip of my drink and smile, it tastes pretty good.
    Levi's drinking his black - so I'm not sure if I would like that. He must, or else he wouldn't get it.

    "Do you like sweet things?" I say without realizing it, never seen him eat anything with sugar in it before.
    "Do you like bitter things?" He replies.

    "Not really," I laugh, "It's not my favorite thing.
    "And same here - for sweet, sugary shit." 

    The atmosphere turns awkward again.
    Am I making Levi uncomfortable?

    "Why haven't we hung out like this before?" Levi says, tipping his head slightly.
    "I-I'm not sure," Not expecting the sudden question, "Maybe..."

    Because we aren't meant to be anything more than acquaintances? 

    "Anything you say is gonna be a bullshit answer," 

    My eyes widen, and I look to the ground. It's probably because he knows I have a crush on him, therefore making it awkward.

    "It's because neither of us have tried to come out with our feelings."

    "And you're way too fucking negative on yourself. You need to stop that shit, Eren. You're gonna drive yourself to depression with that kind of outlook," He says.
    I smile softly, "But-"
    "It's not true, none of that shit is. You really convey your emotions - sadness, happiness, everything - on your face. And your self doubt has been going on way too fucking long. I'm tired of it." Levi takes a deep breath, frowning at me.

    I laugh, "Yeah, I guess it has."

    I reach my hand up to scratch my head but my elbow ends up hitting my cup.
    
    It turns over and the mocha begins to pour out of the cup, not so gracefully.

    Coffee spills all over me, luckily not being too hot. Thank god it's been a little while since I bought this damn thing.

    "Eren?" He jumps out of his chair.
    "I'm fine, I'm fine," I laugh.

    I grab a few napkins and start trying to dry myself off.

    "This is kind of embarrassing..." I say with a slight blush, trying to laugh myself off and not think about spilling coffee all over myself.
    Levi laughs and I turn my head towards him, my eyes widen, "You really are such a brat, Eren."

    I smile, "Sadly, I know," I laugh softly with him.

    "I don't know why I have a such a fucking huge ass crush on your damn face and everything else. Please, Eren, tell me why," He laughs and smiles at me.

    My heart stops - Levi's smiling? Wait, did you just say fucking crush, Levi?

    "U-Uhh..." My face heats up instantly, "D-Did y-ou say?"
    "You heard it, brat," He says, going back to his usual expression.

    I turn my head to the ground, hiding my flushed face, dropping the napkins.
    
    "OhmygodLeviyoucan'ttellsomeoneyoulikethemrightafterthespillcoffeeonthemselves," I cover my face with my hands and start laughing so hard, I feel like I can't breathe.

    He goes up to me and elbows me.

    I look up and him and smile, "I like you too, Levi."
    "I know."

    I laugh, "I'm really happy but really embarrassed that I spilled coffee."
    "It's fine,"

    "You're a dork, Eren."
    "I know."

    "C'mon, let me take you to your house so you can get a change of clothes. We can continue our date once you're dried off."
    I smile, "Okay."